Mood:  not sure
Ha! So much for updating this alot.

For the record, I'm watching Ever After right now. Excellent movie. A must have for all girls that are truly in love with fairy tales. Yup...gotta love it.

Mood:  hug me
Yeah...I need a hug.

My two best friends are fighting, causing one of them to get depressed...the whole thing is depressing me. And I truly hate it when I'm really depressed. I start to think about how alone I am. I'm twenty years old and I haven't even been on a date. I know most people would think "Loser" or "Geek" at such a declaration and maybe I am, but I also know what caused this regression. It's too complex for me to explain right now...it IS two in the morning almost...but I really hate it. And what makes it worse is that I'm still stuck on the dream that one day I'll find the right guy. Yeah, that won't happen. I know I need to drop it. It's me after all. I guess for now I'll hold onto it, but I know no one will ever love me.

On a different note, I DID just turn twenty. My birthday was a few days ago. A few friends of mine and I went to a haunted corn maze. It was cool, but it could've been better. There weren't enoguh people "haunting" the maze. The most fun was scaring one of my friends who really hates being scared. It was so easy to scare her. And she wouldn't even turn off her flashlight.

I guess I'll stop writing now. I'm sort of procrastinating from my midterm studies because of all this. *Sigh* I hope I pass everything next week. Bye to no one! (I know no one is reading this unless they just happen to stumble upon it which is highly unlikely.)

You MUST try this!
Mood:  hungry
This is a South Park version of me! :)

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Mood:  down
Everyone at work is beginning to quit. It's sad actually. We were a fun group, but now that one of our friends has quit (issues with boss), the rest of us are ready to go. I'm sure I'll be following everyone soon also.

Is it a tad messed up that I'm afraid of ending up alone (as I'm sure 99.9% of the population of the world is), yet I'm also afraid of relationships? Well...not afraid, but more along the lines of experiencing severe trust issues that equals the level of fear. I guess I've let outside forces and my family's history influence me a bit too much. I know...it's my fault. I just wish I didn't feel this..."fear." Emotions are a bitch...

Double Feature
Mood:  not sure
Yeah...I saw War of the Worlds and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (again) tonight. Two very good movies. War of the Worlds was...great. I think for the most part I was sitting on the edge of my seat in anticipation of what would happen next. Now, if I wasn't yawning right now, I'd probably write a bit more about it, but seeing as I'm tired...

Just Stuff
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: The Mummy!
Alright, I'm hugely into movies. I think I like imaginary worlds better than reality. I currently have The Mummy in my VCR and Ever After in my DVD player. I play both of them constantly, though I'm thinking of changing out The Mummy for Emperor's New Groove. But, recently, I've seen the awesome movie of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It's great. I love this newer, slightly twisted version better than the old, happy-cheery version. I can't wait for it to come out on DVD.

I'm spending much time on HEX these days. I blame it completely on the fact that the new Harry Potter book just came out and the new movie is coming out in November. I've fallen back into the Harry Potter fanaticism (new word!) that I had forgotten for six months. I'm satisfied with the new book. I didn't read spoilers or fanfics so it wasn't spoiled or less than what I was expecting this time. The death of...well, I'm not gonna say...wasn't too surprising for me. I knew it had to happen. It was just the process of the death that got to me. I mean, it was well-written. It made me cry and I was sad for at least a good hour after that. (Unfortunately, I had to go to work, so the world of Harry Potter was forced out of my mind.) Now, I'm eagerly anticipating the new movie. I will, no doubt, be disappointed because of the many cuts I know have occurred. But, that's ok. It's to be expected, after all.

While I'm in somewhat the mind of books, I'm also eagerly awaiting the release of Eldest, the second book in the series after Eragon. They're by Christopher Paolini. True, they are also kinda on the kiddy side of the genre spectrum, but it's still good. I loved the first one and I'm bouncing in excitement just thinking about the second one. He's gonna be in a city somewhat near me in September and my friend and I want to go get our books signed.

I'm a dork, I know.

Hello!
Mood:  lazy
Heh. Now, this is new for me. I've never had a blog before. This is kinda cool. Not much going on today. Just happy that I have an avatar for hex. (hexrpg.com...a great harry potter rpg site)...